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Ugh! It's becoming such a challenge to enjoy this time that God has given us. It should be a joy to plan our futures together but all I've run into in the past 3 weeks is stress and tears. I don't wanna plan a wedding...
Another challenge I'm facing is sharing engagement. "Engagement Season" is in full swing and everyone is gettin' all ringed-up. I just want to sit on the floor with my arms crossed and scream "IT'S MY TURN!!!" Maybe that's a little selfish, but I feel like I've waited for soooooooo stinking long for this. That I've walked, crawled, run and stumbled my way through a zillion different relationships and life stages - each one with its own set of lessons, disappointments and deep wounds. It's hard for me to be excited for others when I feel like if I ever deserved anything at all it would be to be the sole possesser of great news for a 6 to 12 month period of time. I don't wanna share...I just don't...
Am I completely off base with this? Am I crazy??
3 comments:
Sorry I'm a little late......CONGRATULATIONS!!!!
No matter what you choose, your wedding will be marvelous. You can make even Twinkies look fab!
Personally...I too would sit on the floor with my arms crossed and demand my time in the sun! I don't think it's unreasonable at all to want some special time that's just your's...if it makes you feel any better even though I know alot of the people who've become engaged recently - you're my absolute favorite engaged person and your and Gerald's engagement makes me most excited and warrants exceptionally high pitched squeals and giggles...your's is the wedding I want to know about...though the masses may be disillusioned by the glare off the diamonds on many women's hands, there are many of us who are most excited about your's...love you! xoxo
Okay your honesty cracks me up, and NO you are not crazy! Let me tell you what I told Wendell after people's left ring finger started bling blinging all over the place, "Please, do not propose to me right now!" But you know what if it happens,it happens, however I do feel you. Don't forget It is YOUR turn, and you have tons of amazing friends that are so excited for you and most important you are right smack in the middle of God's plan for you and Gerald. This is where the Dr. Phil moment comes in: relationships are freaking hard, and I can only image that is freaking hard to plan your wedding right now. Take a deep breath, another deep breath. and take it one step at a time. Remember, you have a man that loves you more than anything and is learning to continuously love you as God loves you. He treasures, values and cherishes you. Your going to have your OWN amazing experience with the man of your dreams, and I promise you will not have only Twinkes at your wedding, unless your cool with that. You will have your own cool fun wedding showerS, yes I'm sure you will have many, and your own crazy, naughty, laugh out loud lingerie shower that I am already excited to be at one day. Hope that helped some, love you Millie!!
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